I was awakened by the sound of my name, whispered twice. “Suzie.” I lifted my head from the pillow and opened my eyes to see a man framed by the doorway, thin white hair, slightly bent forward in pajamas. The morning light streamed in from behind him.

“Dad?” I whispered back. “I brought you some coffee,” he said. He set down a mug on the bedside table in the summer cottage, and left without another word.

I am the daughter of a good man. Not a master of the universe, a baron or a statesman. A man who worked hard and seemed to hold only the most ordinary of ambitions: the happiness of his family. He is not celebrated by the masses. History books won’t remember him. Pundits don’t seek his opinion. But he is my Dad, and he’s a good man.

In the past months there’s been a lot of attention given to the failings of men, the reckless collisions with their desires and compulsions. Those we consider “great men” often seem to believe too much in their claim to that glory, risking what is precious for the spike of a thrill. These “great” men can appear like meteors, flaming bright and crashing hard.

But it’s the good men who hold us all together.

My dad never demanded recognition. He went to work, walked the dog, coached my soccer team, and beamed at my graduation. He talked about “doing the right thing” in a way that implied “the right thing” was always obvious. He raised his voice so rarely that we giggled when he did, and he regarded my mistakes with little more than a sigh of patience as he waited for me to course-correct. He was — and is — so good.

And good men are heroic. Noble and true. Good men may not command the spotlight, but they harbor our hearts and give us strength. Good men deserve the throne they will never seek.

After my Dad placed the mug of coffee beside my bed, I laid there a long time considering him, gray and receding, his sweetness toned with the years. I clung to my sense of privilege in the morning quiet. I am the daughter of a good man.

With a Perspective, I’m Susan Dix Lyons.

Susan Dix Lyons is Co-Founder and Design Director of a health design organization in San Francisco.

It was a beautiful Spring day and I was standing atop Hoover Dam, looking down at the Colorado River and reflecting on the amazing, even magical nine days I had just spent rafting the Colorado through the Grand Canyon. While thinking about my recent great adventure, I noticed a tiny ant, no more than 1/4 inch long, at most, making its way along the concrete rim. The contrast in size between this tiny ant and the massive bulk of the dam struck me and seemed to emphasize the ant’s insignificance.

Earlier that morning, however, I had been listening to a news report of the Mars rover and its role in the search for life on our nearest planetary neighbor. And suddenly, from out of the blue I became aware that this tiny, tiny creature was more unique and advanced than anything NASA, with all its extraordinary scientific and technological sophistication, has been able to discover in its search for evidence of life in the universe. Though dwarfed by the awesome edifice on which it was crawling, the ant represented a biological entity that was more advanced than anything our best thinkers, scientists and engineers have been able to find. And while our greatest efforts have been directed at our nearest planetary neighbor, nothing in the vast entirety of the universe has ever been detected that even comes close to the sophistication of that ant.

And with this realization I suddenly became much more involved in learning all I could about ants, which, I’m discovering, have a much more interesting lifestyle than I ever would have imagined.

With a Perspective, I’m Ray Pestrong.

Ray Pestrong is a professor emeritus of geology at San Francisco State University.

At 56, most of my friends are parents – a few, grandparents. For me, it wasn’t in the cards. In my 20s, I had testicular cancer – so, to insure the family line, I made a deposit, then married a few years later. But my wife was never keen on kids, and in truth, neither was I. Too selfish, perhaps? I had a classroom of kids every day and liked the quiet and calm at home.

In my late 30s, in a new and happier marriage, we were having the time of our lives, exploring the city – kidless. For a while, we flirted with the idea of fostering or adopting someone in need, but ultimately decided against it.

Now, recently retired, for the first time in over 32 years I won’t be surrounded by young people every day. Don’t get me wrong; I am thrilled about this new chapter, but I also wonder: will the decision not to have kids stir me more now? We will have no legacy, no grandkids to babysit, nobody to care for us when we’re old.

Unlike many of my friends, I don’t know what it’s like to raise a little person, to put my own wants and needs behind someone utterly dependent on me. I understand that selfless kind of love, but don’t know how it feels. It’s a big void in my life; I am missing out on something fundamental and basic, and as a result, I am less evolved and not as worldly as I could have been.

But, I accept this without regret.

The bond my wife and I share: it’s the most important thing in our lives. Our pets, they are our kids. I can’t say we love them any more than pet owners with human children, but for us, they’re everything.

And our friends, they too are our family, our legacy, the objects of our affection.

Our family, well, it’s just a different kind of family.

With a Perspective, I’m Pete Gavin.

Pete Gavin is a retired English teacher living in Sonoma County.

Someone’s trying to break in.

As I stand inside the apartment door, I hear somebody outside, fiddling with the lock. And I know – as they soon will – I’ve left the door unlocked.

Whoever’s out there, the only thing between us – an unlocked door.

As the scraping noises on the lock intensify, so does the thump thump thump of my beating heart. Slowly, the door cracks open. I stand there – clueless, weaponless and terrified.

The door opens wider. And wider. A stranger – a tall young woman – stares at me. I stare back, my hands shaking.

She speaks first: “Who are you?”

“I live here. Who are you?”

She glares at me, then slowly turns toward the door. “Oh my god. This is 202. I live in 302. I am so, so sorry.”

I exhale; hear her do the same.

Once we both calm down, she heads upstairs, leaving me to ponder what just happened. And what didn’t happen.

Here’s what didn’t happen. If I’d had a gun, my neighbor would be dead. If she’d had a gun, I’d be dead.

In an age when more Americans are buying more guns than ever, that reality keeps coming back: If we’d had guns, at least one of us would be dead.

Instead, we’re both alive. Shaken, not interred.

Those who argue for armed America always say, “Good guys with guns stop bad guys with guns.”

Maybe. But on this day in America, two San Franciscans spared each other’s lives … by not having guns.

With a Perspective, I’m Jules Older.

Jules Older is a writer living in San Francisco.

Dear Billy Rollins,

I am sorry we did not understand you in the fifth grade. You were so different, but none of us knew why. I will never forget the day our teacher taught us the word ‘hypocrite’ to describe the behavior of some of our classmates towards you.

I truly hope you found friends who understand you.

Sincerely,
Ten year-old Kristin

Dear Steve Knight,
It was hard for us military kids, moving so often, being ‘new kids’ all the time. I assumed your loneliness was like mine, weary of trying to find friends in every new place. I wish I could have been a better friend and neighbor to you but I know you grew into a strong, inspiring activist.

Sincerely,
Sixteen year-old Kristin

To all the Women on the Field Hockey Team,

Thanks for welcoming me to the team. We didn’t ask, we didn’t tell.
I know you have friends who offer love and acceptance.

Sincerely,
Twenty year-old Kristin

Dear Don and Greg,

You are truly heroes for adopting babies in the nineties. It was a terrifying time. So many of your friends were ill with AIDS yet you welcomed the tiniest of victims into your home with love.

Bless you.

Sincerely,
30 year old Kristin

Dear Aunt Hannah,

You were upset when Prop 8 passed in California. I said, “I swear by all the teenagers I know who are totally comfortable with their gay peers, change is coming soon.”

Sincerely,
40 year-old Kristin

Dear Billy and Gabe,

It was an honor to be part of your wedding: a golden sunshine evening filled with love and great dancing! See you at the ice rink soon.

Sincerely,
45 year-old Kristin

Dear Kendall,

We love you. We love Katie too. I want the world to be the best it can be so that you will be  not only safe, but welcomed everywhere just as you are.

With much love,
Your 50-year old Aunt Kristin

With a Perspective, I’m Kristin Abbott.

Kristin Abbott is an artist who designs amusement parks. She lives in Palo Alto.

It was 4 in the morning, the spring of 1982, quiet on 4th Street in Berkeley. The marble factory and Fourth Street Grill were closed.  I entered the back door of Bette’s Diner for my shift, got cleaned up, and started prepping. Carrot soup, raisin scones. Pancake mix. Chopped veggies.

I had just finished up the Hotel and Restaurant program at San Francisco City College with Sue, who then opened Bette’s Oceanview Diner with Bette and her husband Manfred. Bette’s photo – bouffant from the 60’s – hung in a place of honor behind the counter.

Things went well from the start because it was indeed ‘good food and friendly service’ as the menu promised. Creative, smart, good cooks and entrepreneurs – Bette, Manfred and Sue were a great team, and Bette’s thrived.

I was thinking about the old days recently at Bette’s memorial. She left us way too young – still fully in this life. Manfred and their beloved daughter adored her, as did the rest of us.

What really struck me as hundreds of people piled into the Hillside Club in Berkeley was how Bette created community. How much richer our lives are because of her.
Bette cared about people — her family, friends, and a much wider circle. Bette’s offered customers quality food, made sure the employees had decent pay and benefits, and treated everyone with respect.

The last time I saw her, hand on hip at the diner, we discussed some burning political question. When Berkeley raised the minimum wage, she was a big supporter. No hesitation.

Alongside her dear friends, dozens of people who had worked at Bette’s showed up to honor her – the dishwashers, cleaners, cooks, servers. A multi-racial, multi-cultural, cross-section of our town.

What ails us is lack of community. If we don’t get to know each other, it’s hard to care. We are sadder, lonelier, more addicted, less healthy. When we get to know each other, we understand that our lives are intimately connected. If you thrive, I thrive. We all do. Simple. It’s a place to start.

So here’s to Bette. The more we contribute to an empathetic, all for one, one for all community, the more we celebrate the values shot through the remarkable life of someone who represented the best of the Bay.

With a Perspective, I’m Carla Javits.

Carla Javits is president and CEO of an organization that supports and promotes mission-driven businesses known as social enterprises.

I will have reached a pivotal moment in my life by August this year: I will have spent exactly half my life in this, my fine adopted country. This was home; then the ground started to shift from the harsh political rhetoric and the poisonous animosity it created. It made me think about where our differences might lie, and if there was a bridge to be found somewhere in our cultures.

Then the children’s story of Rikki Tikki Tavi came to mind. It’s the lovely tale of a mongoose, which fights a deadly Cobra to save a child. Anyone in the Western world would know that the mongoose lives a happy life thereafter, growing old alongside his human masters. But in the Indian version, the mongoose does not fare so well. There, the humans suspect that the mongoose, a wild animal that it is, would some day harm their child. So they watch him closely. When the mongoose kills the snake that fateful evening, the child wakes up and screams for his mother. The mother rushes in, sees her child crying, sees the bloody mongoose and assumes that her suspicions had come true. She kills the mongoose in anger. By the time she realizes her mistake it’s too late. It’s an ominous tale to illustrate that haste makes waste.

The two dramatically different fates of the little animal could explain the differences in our cultures. The Western version is designed to guide that young child who is bubbling with exciting ideas; do good and the world will be a happy place. The Eastern version is like something that a grandmother might narrate- full of advice on the imperfection of humans. Both have good intentions. While one could prepare you for disappointment if things turn out bad, the other gives you a reason. But, when I combine both, the narrative becomes more complete: We all want a better place. Let’s do good things along the way and let’s deliberate as we get there. I think that’s where the bridge lies.

With a Perspective, this is Bhaskar Sompalli.

Bhaskar Sompalli is a scientist-turned-flash-fiction podcaster. He lives in the East Bay.

Have you seen that show everyone’s talking about, the one that takes place in Colonial America with a rapping hip-hop Founding Father, the guy on the $10 bill? Word is it’s fantastic – and it better be since you’ll need about 70 of those bills to see it. Some tickets for the San Francisco production are going for more than $700 dollars.

Broadway shows have never been cheap. But with New York “Hamilton” tickets selling for up to $1,000, musical theatre has become the entertainment of the one percent.

I was a theatre nerd kid. My family went to most Broadway shows that toured San Francisco. I remember cringing at Nazis in “Sound of Music,” singing along to “Pippin” and snapping my fingers like those Jets in “West Side Story.” When you’re a jet, you’re a jet all the way, and I relished every musical I saw, from the homespun hokieness of “Oklahoma” to the morbid murderers of “Sweeney Todd.” I practically danced down Geary Street after catching “A Chorus Line.”

In an era of endless entertainment options, live theatre remains breathtaking, different from movies and video. I learned a lot from those musicals – lessons that still resonate. “Sound of Music”s war refugees are as current today as 1963, “Hair”‘s political fury seems right from the headlines, and “How to Succeed in Business Without Really Trying” is as relevant for an internet start-up as it was in 1961.

As a kid, musical theatre first introduced me to the power of the arts to move and inspire. How ironic expensive “Hamilton,” a multi-racial message of American opportunity, is playing to a mostly white and wealthy grown-up crowd.

But like Unsinkable Molly Brown, I ain’t down yet. Productions like “Hamilton” deserve a standing ovation for their $10 ticket lottery and free programs for school kids to attend. So, as Nellie sang in “South Pacific”, I’m stuck like a dope with a thing called hope. Despite everything, I hope these unaffordable ticket prices won’t bring the curtain down for kids and the magic of live theater.

With a Perspective, I’m Richard Swerdlow.

Richard Swerdlow works for the San Francisco Unified School District.

In the early 1970s, the Academy-award winning costume designer Edith Head toured the country giving talks on her career and the nature of fashion. One cold winter evening in Marion Ohio, she gave a lecture to a women’s group. Looking around the room, she commented that, even though it was winter, there was no reason to dress in winter colors. She asked the audience to see what everyone was wearing, pointing out all of the dark blues, blacks and grays. Then she stopped at one young woman. She said “Except you” and asked her to stand up. The woman was gorgeous, she had waist-length auburn red hair, sky-blue eyes, alabaster skin, and a bright, colorful outfit that she had designed and sewn herself. Ms. Head nodded approvingly. “You. You look great.”

The young woman’s name was Carol Newland. An artist by education, she expanded her craft into the weaving arts, spinning and dying her own wool and showing her work around the country. The pinnacle of this era of her career was a hooded coat sewn of hand-dyed and spun emerald and blue wool, into which she wove the entirety of a peacock’s plumage. She opened her own successful French reweaving business and for decades she repaired many historic costumes and uniforms, sometimes dying and spinning wool to match fabrics no longer available.

When arthritis made this work difficult, she retired, and gave herself over to pastel painting, as the pastel crayons could fit comfortably in her hands. These years were prolific, her work showed around northern California, winning several awards. When pulmonary fibrosis took away her ability to draw, she read. When she was too tired to read, she held her granddaughters in her arms. When she became too tired for that, she held their hands. When, finally, even that was too much, she slipped away, with her family around her. She was my mother, and she was 73 when she passed in May. She leaves a family grieving her loss but always marveling at her life, a wondrous, ferociously creative work of art.

With a Perspective, this is Mike Newland.

Mike Newland is director of cultural resources for an environmental science and planning firm in Petaluma.

For the summer hike along the Trail of Ten Falls the boy wore flip flops and he carried his own pack. This was a good thing. He is nine-years-old, and we must all learn to carry our own burdens. His pack was orange and in it were a water bottle, matches, a blue bandana and a plastic Pokémon figure that resembled a rough-shelled tortoise, red-eyed and sharp-toothed and fierce. The boy posed him for a photograph beside a forest of swordferns.

I carried food and warm clothes, sunscreen and insect repellent, first aid kit and knife, more water. We stopped on the creek bank and I made lunch. Upstream two women sat in another idyllic nook and I recalled the tale of two Buddhist monks who come across a young woman by a river. At her request, one carries her across and, later, the other scolds him for it. “I set her down at the riverbank,” the first monk says. “You are still carrying her.”

It’s a lesson about carrying resentment.

From his pack the boy withdrew a book on how to make paper airplanes, paper for folding, two decks of Pokémon cards, a photo album.

“You’re kidding,” I said.

He grinned.

What else? A plastic grapnel with a length of black line. Markers and a sketchbook, with drawings of monsters and superheroes. A metal vase, black with a gold band at the top and diamond patterns of blue, purple and green.

To draw, the boy said.

While the boy did not complain about the weight – yet – he did not want to walk a dead-end trail to 178-foot Double Falls. But I insisted.

A lacy curtain of water fell over the rock face and scattered to rivulets across the crags and into the pool below. Blue and yellow and purple wildflowers grew alongside and brilliant afternoon sunshine formed a rainbow at the base. We clambered across boulders until the boy was close enough to touch the end of the rainbow. He stood long, ecstatic and charmed — no pot of gold but so what? There were mossy green rocks and sparkling water and that luminous refracted arc of ROYGBIV.

It’s a lesson about light.

You can’t put that in your pack, but what you carry of it will ease the other burdens for days and years to come. Or so a father hopes.

With a Perspective, I’m Steven Saum.

I recently walked in on one of my co-workers crying in the bathroom.

At first, I didn’t realize she was crying. She was leaning into the mirror in a posture I usually associate with the removal of a stray eyelash or the application of lipstick. I was already past her by the time I registered her red eyes, her puffy face.

I’ve had only a handful of exchanges with this woman. She is young and soft-spoken, a relatively new hire to my company. We work on opposites sides of the office and in separate functions. We are practically strangers.

She was still leaning into the mirror as I washed my hands. That’s when I saw a tear slide down her cheeks.

I looked away.

Every day, we witness public displays of emotion. We see people argue on street corners, laugh over lunch, kiss on the train. But there’s something about sadness that feels private. Crying into your pillow is one thing, but crying in public can feel downright shameful.

I’ve had a few of my own public crying sessions over the years, with one particularly cringe-worthy incident not long ago. A misunderstanding with my boyfriend resulted in me sobbing in the Montgomery Street BART station on a bustling Thursday night. It was mortifying. “What must they think of me?” I agonized, as clusters of my fellow passengers waited nearby for their trains.  At that moment, I wanted nothing more than to disappear.

Back in the bathroom at work, I was torn between sympathy and embarrassment for my co-worker. I couldn’t imagine what could have driven her to tears by 10 a.m. on a Monday morning. I wondered if I should try to comfort her. But then I thought back to that night in the BART station and I was pretty sure that if anyone had attempted to console me it would have only added to my already considerable humiliation.

Looking back, I’d like to say that I consoled my co-worker, that after a good chat, we parted ways with raised spirits. Instead, I dried my hands and left the bathroom. At the time, it seemed the kindest thing, to leave her alone with her grief.

But what if I was wrong?

With a Perspective, I’m Lisa Thomson.

Lisa Thomson is a marketer and writer. She lives in Oakland.

After seven weeks of daily sports, dances with girls’ camps, and a fierce intra-camp competition called Color War, the final evening activity of every summer at Camp Skylemar was called Waterfront Night. After darkness fell, the whole camp waited outside their bunks for the Color War captains, carrying torches, to pass. Each bunk fell in behind these leaders in a silent processional that ambled along a dirt path to the waterfront.

Ten minutes later we reached Tricky Pond, tricky because the winds shifted frequently, where we were met by a massive crackling bonfire. After planting their poles in the sand, the captains stood at the water’s edge. The rest of us sat facing them. Out on the water, on a pontoon we could not see, counselors sat in darkness we could not penetrate, softly singing camp songs that echoed across the water.

Speeches by the adored camp owners marking the end of our summer followed. Finally, each camper approached the water to say goodbye to his summer. We were given a tiny boat, made from the stub of a lit candlestick attached precariously to a small piece of balsa wood. A fragile nothing, but something.

Crouching by the water’s edge, we gently pushed our boats toward the unseen pontoon and made a wish. After fifteen minutes, Tricky Pond’s shore was aglow with the flickering lights of these tiny boats, buoyed by wishes as they headed towards the unseen counselors. Some boats never made it very far, snuffed out by a tricky gust of wind. Some hugged the shore and took their own path away from sight. And some, most, made it out to those counselors, but I don’t know for sure. We never witnessed their final mooring. We had turned around to walk back to our bunks where marshmallows and dreams of the next summer awaited us.

And so it is with my teaching these days. Every morning, alone in my classroom, awaiting the arrival of my students, I prepare for my day by remembering a little beach by a large pond, and a lesson 40 years old.

A fragile something. A push. A wish.

With a Perspective, I’m Steve Hettleman.

Steve Hettleman teaches English at Redwood High School in Larkspur.

I notice so many ant trails on the fire roads this time of year. Well-worn paths by medium-sized dark ants that lead to huge debris piles. These are harvester ants. They are easy to identify not because of shape, color or size but because of the rubble they leave at the entrance to their underground homes. They are harvesting seeds and the germ of the seed is the most nutritious part. The chaff provides little sustenance, so surrounding the holes are huge mounds of unwanted chaff.

Seeing these hard working insects I immediately consider that biblical proverb and a well-known Aesop’s fable, both from the indoctrination of  my childhood. Ants are often used as metaphors for industrious behavior, self-sacrifice for the greater good and planning ahead for future scarcity. The proverb admonishes, “Go to the ant, you sluggard! Consider her ways and be wise, which having no captain, overseer or ruler, provides her supplies in the summer, and gathers her food in the harvest.”

And then there is the ant and the grasshopper. The grasshopper that spent the nice warm summer months just singing, while the ant prepared for winter. The grasshopper begged for food, the ant refused. The grasshopper died.  That’ll teach him! Like most people, I was more grasshopper than ant as a kid but lately that ant is making more and more sense. Human species take note.

The total biomass of ants on the planet is greater than the total biomass of human beings. Ants have been around for hundreds of millions of years and have survived and evolved through several mass extinctions. There are well over 12,000 described species. They are found in nearly every habitat on every continent but Antarctica.

So while humans are singing and fiddling away with climate change, the ants are meanwhile thriving and adapting to the changes we are manifesting across the environment. We shall see who survives the coming winter.

This is Michael Ellis with a Perspective.

Michael Ellis is a naturalist who leads trips throughout the world. He lives in Santa Rosa.

It has become customary to speak of homelessness as a crisis. But is it? To my ears, the word crisis implies a critical point in time, a moment when a shift in circumstances forces people to make decisions of consequence.

By this definition, homelessness is not a crisis. It is serious, but it has also been a problem for decades. It is the opposite of a crisis. It is the status quo, and that actually makes it something far worse. It is the brutal reflection of who we are as a society.

We draw attention to a situation by calling it a crisis. But the problem with this label isn’t just its lack of an expiration date. Although the word conveys urgency, it can also mask the entrenched nature of a problem’s underlying causes. The forces that have pushed so many out on to the streets have been at work for years.

Furthermore, calling something a crisis invokes a sense of immediacy that places a priority on responding instead of addressing root causes. We mobilize to finds beds with roofs over them, but there are never enough to meet a never-ending tide. Of course, when it comes to public policy there is nothing easier and more obvious than saying that a problem can be solved only by addressing its underlying causes, and nothing more difficult to do in practice.

Finally there is the awkward but unavoidable fact that over the course of a day we may encounter the homeless but we do not experience homelessness ourselves. For the vast majority of us every day ends where it began: at home.

One place to start is to stop viewing homelessness as a failure of our system and instead see it as the logical outcome. We have deindustrialized, but not retrained. We deinstitutionalized without providing an alternative. We subsidize and protect the housing that exists without building the units people can afford. We should not be surprised that there are so many in our midst, and instead consider that there could be so many more.

With a Perspective, I’m Paul Staley.

Paul Staley lives in San Francisco.

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